St. George, USA - Jane Doe felt so "dirty and used" after having sex the first time with her husband she retreated to a bathroom, curled up on the floor and bawled.
"I felt like a horrible person," she said. "I didn't understand why he had done what he had just done."
Doe said she grabbed bottles of Tylenol and aspirin and swallowed the pills, later throwing up.
"I thought I wanted to die," said Doe, the state's key witness in the rape as an accomplice trial of polygamous sect leader Warren S. Jeffs.
Prosecutors did not explicitly ask Doe if she was attempting to end her life or how many pills she took. Doe said she never mentioned the incident until she met with a police investigator in 2005.
It was one of several dramatic moments during Doe's testimony on Friday. The judge called a recess at one point as Doe sobbed while telling jurors about making her wedding dress and marrying her 19-year-old cousin.
As Jeffs performed the ceremony at a Nevada motel, Doe said she "didn't even comprehend what he was saying" and that she felt "trapped, extremely overwhelmed, immense amounts of pressure and so scared and so upset."
Prosecutors ended the day by having jurors listen to an hour's worth of audio recordings of lessons Jeffs gave in the late 1990s.
One lesson focused on "specific duties" as wives and mothers and drew from statements made by his father, Rulon T. Jeffs, as well as early leaders of the mainstream LDS Church, such as Brigham Young and Heber C. Kimball.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints publicly disavowed polygamy in 1890; it excommunicates those who believe in or practice plural marriage and says it has no connection to the fundamentalist sects.
But fundamentalist Mormons, includng the FLDS, use all the same scriptural texts, including the Doctrine & Covenants. In the recordings Jeffs refers several times to "132," the section that references plural marriage.
Jeffs is charged with two counts of rape as an accomplice based on the marriage he conducted between Doe and her former husband and advice he gave them.
The sect leader's attorneys said Thursday that Jeffs had no way of knowing nonconsensual sex would occur after he married the couple.
"Pressure to marry is not pressure to commit rape," attorney Tara Isaacson said in her opening statement.